Friday

Wow.

I fell back into an old, stupid habit last night. It felt nice though, oh so nice.

Saturday

Yes.

Someone come slap me, real hard, please. I need it.

Thursday

Lab.

I miss you. Well, I miss who you used to be, you know.. the happy person who is still inside of you. I would give everything to see you laugh like before, to see you do the smallest things with a smile on your face. I wish you could be happy like you used to. But the thing is, you're not, and don't think you ever will be. As soon as something good comes along, something bad happens. I hate it. I hate to watch you go into this state of mind and me not being able to do anything about it, knowing I can not help in any way at all. I'm trying to do my best, but it hurts me too, more than I show. You see, I don't show my emotions or tell you my problems because you have enough of your own. I know that sometimes I make things even harder for you, and I am deeply sorry for that, I try to tell you I love you, but the words never come out. I want you to know that I do love you, with every inch of my body. I will love you the whole way through this, I will love you on your good days, bad days and everything in between. I want you to know I am, and always will be here for you.